Online Spy!

I’ll admit it, I compulsively check the various social networking sites I’m a member of. On top of that, when I get bored – usually saturday afternoons – I start looking up people I used to see, hook up with, date, etc. My favorite thing to do is see where are they now, and who they are going out with. I can say that I do this because I want to see how far I’ve come, but it’s crap. I know it, you know it. I’m doing it because I’m nosy and because I want to see who the new girl is.

I take great pride in being able to say:

“Well she may be young, but I’m cuter.”

“At least I’m less of an asshole”

and

“My boobs are better.”

I know, I’m not supposed to be in competition with these women but I can’t help it. It’s partially because I’m insecure, it’s also my way of justifying that I can do better than him, if he can’t do better than me. Sometimes I worry that I won’t find someone better than what I had before before, and by seeing what comes after me I know that I can do better.

Other times, it’s all about entertainment. Take for example today’s browsing, I found a guy I knew in college. He was charming, fun, attractive. Then I see the girl he is dating, she looks like she’s out of Thelma and Louise. Big puffy bangs with what appears to be shiny extensions, some sort of weird outfit, and yeah, she was 10 years his senior. That was surely one of those, Look how much better I am doing. The men I date are way more attractive, successful, and not 10 years my senior with a wardrobe stuck in a time warp.